Over the past two years, I admittedly, have been very concerned with a lot of negative situations occurring in my life. Whether it’s my health issues or the neighbor/landlord issues, and recently, a loss of a friend. The real truth is, I am not a negative person by nature. I tend to always see the good in people and situations. This new negative outlook, has affected me in a lot of ways. I don’t feel content in my own home and I’m sure it’s affected my ongoing health issues. We live in a world where the news shows at least 15 minutes of terrible news and rarely focuses on the positive aspects happening in the community. I admit that I get consumed with my anger towards certain people and have actually felt hatred for one, in particular. That’s just not me. I don’t normally harbor feelings of hate, no matter how much someone has hurt me. It upsets me that I allowed her to get to me like this, but I also know that I can change all of this. I may not change how she sees or talks about me, but I certainly can stop the hold she has over me. She’s not worth my time and energy, and definitely not worth my health.
Therefore, I’m going to make a very concerted effort to focus on the positive things in life. I recently watched how mindful meditation can help with easing the symptoms of chronic pain and I’m sure decrease my anxiety. I am committed to making this a part of my daily routine. It’s going to be my own experience, whether 30 days of mindful meditation will decrease my symptoms and will overall improve my quality of life. I want to be that serene, happy and content person, I know that I’ve always been. So let the journey begin.